I'm happy to see 2010 come to a close. It was not one of the greatest years of my life. It was a bit of a struggle in more than 1 way. There were a few happy moments, but seems there were more tears instead. I would say that I was melancholy throughout much of the year. I think I am still trying to figure out who I am and what I'm supposed to be doing here while I'm on Earth. I almost feel like I have felt this way my entire life. Who am I? What is the purpose that I was created for? I also feel I need to clean up a lot of things in my life. Things, ideas, thoughts, and people (yes people) that I don't need these things that only create toxins in my life. As a person who is not keen on change, I find myself struggling with just the thought. I suppose all change is not evil, some is necessary and can be rewarding, but I always fear it.
The good of 2010:
Molly turned 1, and she's healthy.
Ryan got potty trained, and he's healthy.
Passed my Real Estate class.
Passed my Licensing Exam for Real Estate.
Anniversary trip to Cedar Point (7 years!)
Jimmy is trying to get healthy and stay off medication
I'm healthy, my body has held up pretty well this past year (except for one ovarian cyst popping..tmi?)
True Family (not all family is true or there for you or even love you for who you are)
The neutral of 2010:
Got a job in Real Estate
Got a new tv
Lost a few lbs (it's never enough)
The bad of 2010:
Money (one of Jimmy's worst years)
Medical bills (unexpected medical problems with kids and Jimmy)
The Real Estate market is soft, therefore I can't invest in it full time.
My day job (this is a post all in of itself...this job has changed who I am...and not for the better)
Looking at the list, the good outweighs in the bad in amount. When you are living it, it appears that there is nothing good. Writing out a list like this seems to put things into perspective. Even though, it was not a good year financially for us and I'm looking forward to new things this year.
Things I want for 2011:
To quit my day job.
To do Real Estate full time
To stay active and get healthy (but not obsess over it)
To be more positive
To see the best in people
To be nicer to people (in my thoughts too!)
To be more patient with my kids
To become a neat freak
To become more organized (starting this project very soon!)
To cook at least 6 days a week.
To appreciate my husband
To learn more about God, dig deeper into his word and to Love him passionately
To try something new
To make true friends where I live
To give more
To save more
To spend less
To accept all things good or bad
To show God's love
What are you wanting this year?
Goodbye 2010. Hello 2011.