me holding Miss Molly the morning she was born. 10/5/09
I've got babies surrounding me!
My beautiful Cousin, Bethany is due this Summer, my other beautiful cousin, Sonja is due in the Fall, my like-a-little-sis, Rachel is due this Summer. I also know a few other people that are having babies...the thought of pregnancy and babies is all around me. I'm not sure what this all means.
I have been longing to hold, smell, touch a newborn baby. I'm already picking out names and imagining what personality they will have compared to my other two. I'm already thinking about how to arrange a nursery when I have a 3 bedroom house and kids of the opposite gender. Do I really want a newborn w/ my soon-to-be 4 year old and a rambunctious toddler?!
I know that God's timing is not my own. I would prefer to have a baby next year, to get our life figured out first. The career path I intend to venture on, schooling with The Hubs. Big changes. Yet, I just can't escape this yearning for another one. The thoughts are incessant. They will not escape my brain. I don't know what to make of them. My thoughts? God whispering? I do know this. I'm NOT pregnant as of today. I know this 100%.
I also know, I'm over the moon excited that this weekend I get to share in beauty of pregnancy and life with my Cousin at her baby shower. I can't wait to touch that belly, see her glowing face, spend time with family and see all the wonderful gifts she will receive. (there are new products on the market that weren't there when i was pregnant w/ Molly and she's only 18 months!)
I need a cure to this Baby Fever.